For your daily dose of insanity.

My goal is not to wake up at 40 with the bitter realization that I've wasted my life in a job I hate because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens..............
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this is the part ive learned after i entered the college yohoo. come to think of it, there's a part in the last paragraph that says realization, which means i reversed it, to much sweeter and most hateful job on my time... becoming a nurse.

everything is white. white is everywhere. i can see every student in the block wearing the same half slits and holding the same books..
it takes a lot of brain to be a nurse.. it means, You'd be surprised how handy a command of basic literacy skills can be... my t shirt is a bit noisy tellin people i am in demand.

So guess what, i have my exams tomorrow and im doing some internet chattin here. Don't worry about it. How much can they tell from a standardized test? I've had fortune cookies that were more accurate.

ok so, i blog when my alter ego wants to communicate... so let me tell you some facts according to my alter ego... (at the benefit of the doubt.. if someone knows, you can click the red cross at the upper right of this page..)

1. i like to read. thank goodness, there's a resort for all the lame preachers of this world... atleast i can stop the talkin by closing the book, unlike people who takes pride on what they are saying... their aspirations and achievements yakitty yack yack..bombers. they just dont stop.

2. i dont indulge myself in some expensive work of man.. i just use what i have.. and i dont give a fuzz in some eyedropping gadgets. Nor do I indulge in illegal substances (I don't even order pizza with mushrooms).

3. I still prefer to think of myself as a negative role model, in that I am negative about most things, which is just being realistic, which now that I think about it is a positive trait after all. Wait. Now I'm confused.

4. We will make even more references to existentialist philosophers and self-destructive painters, thereby qualifying as educational programming. now its not mine...its from my cynical friend.

5. Clinging desperately to youth is pathetic. People should accept their age, take pride in it, flaunt it. (Please note that I reserve the right to change my mind about this three seconds after I turn thirty.)

yours in a mental gown,
ulapski, femme fatalistic

the road fragrant with rugbies and rabies...

cold shower is the best.. much more in midnight... and im exercising (again) my insomia.
my dog is a bit upset because i didnt let that filthy husky go inside the house..
time to beat up this steady state, and let's move on.

in our roadtrip scenario in san lazaro,i intentionally ignored those parents sniffing some orange sticky glue inside their clothings.. too bad my classmates have a little laugh about that, trying to fit in to the commotion, i started laughing too.. absurd to the fact that it is not really funny, because they considered it as a "food", a means to satisfy their hunger. i aimlessly told myself to divert my attention to what i was lacking..(like worrying about my grades and exams etc).. may problema din ako.. and it will just pollute my mind and hate this country once more..

another agenda: im really neurotic at this one, and its a bit alarming.

I cant stand it. staring at the church and its elements... after i watched that video, im a bit terrorized with the content. and because of that, 3 months na ko hindi nagsisimba.. but i call to God more often now. trying to talk about everything in mind with the Lord. And im still praying to guide me to your light LordGod. i really have to decide my sabbath day...moving on..

nakupo.. narrowed na vision ko... paanu ba to? hahahay!! its past 12am na and i have my duty at 4am, so panu na to... maglalaway na2man ba ko sa van...? speaking of drooling, theres a pt in a hospital, have stage 2 Rabies and its not a pleasing one and a bit disturbing as well.. they locked the room and leave the patient inside.. drooling and in restraints. narinig ko pa silang nagtatalo na bakit nilagyan pa ng swero ung pt., eh its no use, the pt will still die, para bang....sayang lang.. alam nyo namang hindi na uubra. kaya for all the readers, if uve been bitten by a dog or a cat(its more dangerous) dont ignore it, rabies may take mos or yrs to develop depending on the location of the bitten site, the more far from the brain, the longer... kaya immediate vaccine is needed.. once the pt is crazy, iisa nalang hantungan mo. seriously.

for the time being, sayo muna ung mga requirement ncp ko. akoy iidlip laang at may misadventures pa ko,, tc ^^
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