Michael Jackson

I can’t sleep and up before dawn, I’m still wandering here in my room. Its brown out and i can’t use my computer so I’m writing it down (not anymore.. teehee!). I’m still in the depts of sadness because michael jackson has passed away but its still a relief because he can now be at peace with God in heaven. I’m also a big fan of MJ and sometimes a hater but still I’m just a confused fan.

I’ve decided not to make a blog about the greatness of MJ but I’ll be lying that I don’t browse and listen to his songs 24/7 after he died.

He is poorer as I imagined. He never got his simplest and most cheapest wish every normal boy should have . MJ calls this as the “LOST YEARS” and these years are the most precious. The joyness of a little boy together with friends playing together, laugh together and friends that just love him the way he is. Not as a singer, dancer or as a rich, influential person…( just a person and not a personality)

… but in his situation, you can never attain this simple joy because when he tried to do that people just used him and brought him to a state that he was the most ridiculed person in the history of life.

A broken youth that he tried to fix and ending up as a molester? how absurd is that? how in world that children nowadays can never be trusted? it makes me wonder…

And above all, even if some people hates him he still believes that the world is a better place.. for you, and for me.

Polar Bears extinction by 2030

In this fast changing world and from the vast far and unseen land from most of us, lives a creature struggling for survival.



Land creatures from the equator do not share this suffering because of their abundant foods in the tropical rainforest but to the creatures in the Arctic Ocean in the North where they mostly live, starvation lingers…



We all know there is an absence of human development because of their remote habitat..

Global Warmings effect has serious consequences for all living organisms, but it is of especially great concern for the polar bear. According to the U.S. Geological Survey Office, reduction in sea ice in the Arctic can see a loss of 2/3rds of the entire word’s Polar Bear population over the next 50 years. (http://www.bearplanet.org/global-warming-polar-bears.shtml)



.. This endangered species needs help from us. Because of man made global warming, fast climate change affects polar bears because melting season hinders them to get food. They cannot go beyond the boundaries of heat where their preys live, Also the toxic chemicals from worldmide industrial activities are carried to the Arctic by air, rivers and oceans.

YOU CAN HELP THEM BY SAVING THE PLANET. WE ARE NOT THE ONLY ONES GOD CREATED. WE SHOULD BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE ECOSYSTEM THAT BOTH ANIMALS AND HUMANS LIVE IN. YOU CAN DO SOMETHING. START NOW.

ryan larkin… my art symbolism….

Posted on May 29, 2009 - in my friendster blogs

its been a week and still im depress and that’s because of a guy name ryan.

I am deeply stabbed by my awareness of the fact that artists are deprived of deprivation… and being an artist is not just being an artist.

The video my really captivate some persons but definitely not all because the one who can see every pixel of this vid knows its a big issue. Artist struggles up until now to be successful in their dreams. They are also hurt when they sell their art, because a big part of themselves are lost and they do it not because of money, because they want to share their aspirations and talents. But some of us forgets to recognized this hard working people. Ryan died of lung problem last 2007.

Hope you may find something essential in this video.

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvfgLBMmtVs

PINKISH way of LOVE^_^

Pink - Please Don't Leave Me Lyrics and Video

:-Da da da da, da da da daDa da da da-da da

I don't know if I can yell any louderHow many time have

I kicked you outta here?

Or said something insulting?

da da da da-da

I can be so mean when

I wanna beI am capable of really anything

I can cut you into pieces

But my heart is....broken

Da da da-da da

Please don't leave me

Please don't leave me

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?

What is it with you that makes me act like this?

I've never been this nasty

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest

But baby I don't mean itI mean it,

I promiseDa da da-da da

Please don't leave me

Da da da-da da

Please don't leave me

Da da da-da da

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me

I can't be without, you're my perfect little punching bag

And I need you,

I'm sorry.

Da da da da, da da da dada da da da-da da

Please, please don't leave me

Baby please don't leave me

No, don't leave me

Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you but it's always gonna come right back,

It's gonna come right back to this.

Please, don't leave me.

No.No, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave mePlease don't leave me

i was having a nice break from our review marathon in SRG and i found this cute song from pink w/c is truly very psychotic but true in a relationship.... honestly? this is whats going on in my relationship., i have terrible mood swings right now. we are all freakin out because 1 month to go and were gonna take the exam that will judge our existence.

paalam

January 23, 2009 she leaves… its a heart breaking afternoon. Siguro yung iba matatawa, aso lang pala eh… hindi big deal. Pero hindi ganun kadaling kalimutan si bantay.

January 1, 2003 namin inampon si Jerry. Siya ang pinaka pangit na tuta sa lahat ng tuta ng kapit bahay namin. Puting balahibo… payat, walang balahibo ang buntot.. in short, pangit. Pero siya ang pinaka masayang nangyari sa araw na yon. Dahil hindi siya gusto ng kapitbahay namin, pinamigay samin.. un din ang isang dahilan kung bakit espesyal siya, because she was unappreciated when he stepped foot in the world. We named him Jerry kasi kasagsagan ng meteor garden yun kaya memorable, kasi birthday ni jerry yan un…isa sa mga f4… OO, FAN AKO NG F4 “DATI”.(period!)

And to make it short, she was the only alive child of her mother when she was 5 months old. Natutuwa naman ako na iba palang magalaga ang nagampon kay jerry. (eherm, eheheh)… siya lang ang nagsurvive… pero ngaun hindi siya nakasurvive sa sakit nya….

Akala namin nagdadalang - aso si jerry… ang laki ng tiyan nya.. parang puputok sa laki… sabi pa namin, ilan kaya ang laman nyan? sabik na sabik sa araw ng kanyang panganganak… mga 4:00pm ng hapon nakita nalang namin siyang naninigas na at wala ng kibo. Patay na si jerry. Ang unang bagay na naisip ko.. ung mga anak nya sa loob… kaya nag panic na kami. Kung tatawag ng veterinario baka hindi na abutan na buhay, eh kung kami nalang kaya? hmmmm…. it takes alot of courage so, we called the clinic for animals… sakto! busy ang phone. damn! tayo nalang nga… pagkatapos ng seremonyas, gloves, goggles, face mask and scalpel…. binuhat namin ang malamig na bangkay sa lupa para lahat ng dugo wala sa garahe….

Pagkabutas sa tiyan nya, ayun ang daming tubig na lumabas… ei! bakit puro tubig lang, walang tuta sa loob? amps…. may sakit pala si jerry. Ininspeksyon pa namin ang loob ng katawan ni jerry… walang bulate, malinis… mainit pa.Pero nakita namin ang problema…. puro tumor na ang liver nya… malalaking bukol. 6-7 bukol sa atay….

“tama na. ilibing na natin” Ive seen a look in dog’s eyes, a quickly vanishing look of amazed contempt and I am convinced that basically dogs think humans are nuts. And ill say goodbye and we love you… may you rest in eternal paradise with God.


-The great pleasure of a dog is that you may make a fool of yourself with him and not only will he not scold you, but he will make a fool of himself too.

For your daily dose of insanity.

My goal is not to wake up at 40 with the bitter realization that I've wasted my life in a job I hate because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens..............
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this is the part ive learned after i entered the college yohoo. come to think of it, there's a part in the last paragraph that says realization, which means i reversed it, to much sweeter and most hateful job on my time... becoming a nurse.

everything is white. white is everywhere. i can see every student in the block wearing the same half slits and holding the same books..
it takes a lot of brain to be a nurse.. it means, You'd be surprised how handy a command of basic literacy skills can be... my t shirt is a bit noisy tellin people i am in demand.

So guess what, i have my exams tomorrow and im doing some internet chattin here. Don't worry about it. How much can they tell from a standardized test? I've had fortune cookies that were more accurate.

ok so, i blog when my alter ego wants to communicate... so let me tell you some facts according to my alter ego... (at the benefit of the doubt.. if someone knows, you can click the red cross at the upper right of this page..)

1. i like to read. thank goodness, there's a resort for all the lame preachers of this world... atleast i can stop the talkin by closing the book, unlike people who takes pride on what they are saying... their aspirations and achievements yakitty yack yack..bombers. they just dont stop.

2. i dont indulge myself in some expensive work of man.. i just use what i have.. and i dont give a fuzz in some eyedropping gadgets. Nor do I indulge in illegal substances (I don't even order pizza with mushrooms).

3. I still prefer to think of myself as a negative role model, in that I am negative about most things, which is just being realistic, which now that I think about it is a positive trait after all. Wait. Now I'm confused.

4. We will make even more references to existentialist philosophers and self-destructive painters, thereby qualifying as educational programming. now its not mine...its from my cynical friend.

5. Clinging desperately to youth is pathetic. People should accept their age, take pride in it, flaunt it. (Please note that I reserve the right to change my mind about this three seconds after I turn thirty.)

yours in a mental gown,
ulapski, femme fatalistic

the road fragrant with rugbies and rabies...

cold shower is the best.. much more in midnight... and im exercising (again) my insomia.
my dog is a bit upset because i didnt let that filthy husky go inside the house..
time to beat up this steady state, and let's move on.

in our roadtrip scenario in san lazaro,i intentionally ignored those parents sniffing some orange sticky glue inside their clothings.. too bad my classmates have a little laugh about that, trying to fit in to the commotion, i started laughing too.. absurd to the fact that it is not really funny, because they considered it as a "food", a means to satisfy their hunger. i aimlessly told myself to divert my attention to what i was lacking..(like worrying about my grades and exams etc).. may problema din ako.. and it will just pollute my mind and hate this country once more..

another agenda: im really neurotic at this one, and its a bit alarming.

I cant stand it. staring at the church and its elements... after i watched that video, im a bit terrorized with the content. and because of that, 3 months na ko hindi nagsisimba.. but i call to God more often now. trying to talk about everything in mind with the Lord. And im still praying to guide me to your light LordGod. i really have to decide my sabbath day...moving on..

nakupo.. narrowed na vision ko... paanu ba to? hahahay!! its past 12am na and i have my duty at 4am, so panu na to... maglalaway na2man ba ko sa van...? speaking of drooling, theres a pt in a hospital, have stage 2 Rabies and its not a pleasing one and a bit disturbing as well.. they locked the room and leave the patient inside.. drooling and in restraints. narinig ko pa silang nagtatalo na bakit nilagyan pa ng swero ung pt., eh its no use, the pt will still die, para bang....sayang lang.. alam nyo namang hindi na uubra. kaya for all the readers, if uve been bitten by a dog or a cat(its more dangerous) dont ignore it, rabies may take mos or yrs to develop depending on the location of the bitten site, the more far from the brain, the longer... kaya immediate vaccine is needed.. once the pt is crazy, iisa nalang hantungan mo. seriously.

for the time being, sayo muna ung mga requirement ncp ko. akoy iidlip laang at may misadventures pa ko,, tc ^^
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